Rachel Utz…The Struggle is Real



All throughout the day my confidence is tested. High school is probably in the top three places where I’m not as confident as I should be. School is where everybody is insecure and doubts their worth…including me! I know for a fact that almost everybody everywhere is insecure. I have been learning that, no matter how old you get or mature you are, you will not be 100% secure in who God made you to be if you’re searching in materialistic things.

We all have a purpose.
We all are loved.


We all have a loving Father who wouldn’t change one thing that he made us to be.
He has a plan.
He knows what He’s doing.
So, why do we question that? Why is it that we wake up and stare at every aspect of our bodies? Why is it that when it comes to negatives, we can point every single one out. But, positives? No. We feel like we have to rely on others to tell US about them. Because they do know better, right?!?! NO!!!!! Not at all!! At least this is how I feel. I feel like there is this standard that “someone” (me) put for me to meet. This standard to be perfect. To not mess up in front of anyone. A standard that constantly grows with my dissatisfaction.

Let me tell you something. This only leads to fear. Stop! I need to stop! You need to stop! We all need to stop!

You will never ever find confidence if you are looking for it in your clothes, make-up, nails, hair, shoes, people, girls and boys, weight, height, the list goes on.

We will ONLY find our confidence in the Lord.

So, when we spend more and more time in the mirror looking at our flaws, let us realize that we are just picking apart God’s masterpiece. Have you ever made something or done something that you worked very hard on and, in the end, love it! Then someone comes along and wants to change, add on, or do something to make it “better.” I personally hate it when this happens. But, I do it to God everyday somehow.

Confidence can be a struggle for the outside of your body, but also the inside.

If your heart is made up of lies and dissatisfaction, you’re not going to be confident. I guarantee you. Our confidence comes with what we let in. Music, friends, the people you surround yourself with. They influence us. Whether we like to admit it or not (I don’t like to admit it), this takes a toll on us. We constantly need uplifting things in our life. The Bible is one of them! For real. It is my hope that one day, just like brushing my teeth, I will spend time reading and applying His Word to my life everyday!! We are loved. Not just by other people on this earth, but by the GOD who made this earth for us! The Creator of the Universe also created the earth. But ever since the beginning, we have tried to change something about it or look for something “better”. Look where that has gotten us. Don’t worry, we get another chance. Seriously though! Why do we think that we know what is better? I don’t know why. This is a question that doesn’t make sense to me!

But, together, let’s try to reach God’s standard that He set for us while we’re here; the only standard that should matter to us; to be the person He created us to be. I am not even close to getting this under control.

My mom has told me for as long as I can remember to be myself. She says that she likes that better than any fake personality I can put on. And I know that she loves me. But, God…He loves me even more. Therefore, I know that this is true for me.

He gives me days to practice. I fail a lot of those tests, but as my pastor said, “Stay on the ark”. You haven’t failed and lost all of your progress. Live your life like a game on your phone. Keep your high score and try to beat it and make it to the next level! Okay?!!?!?!?!??!?!

I stumbled across this Scripture this morning in Psalms 27. It says “Though an army deploys against me, my heart is not afraid; though a war breaks out against me, still I am confident.”(Psalm 27:3…bold font added).

It clearly states that no matter what is going on, we are to always be confident. How do we get this way when we feel so far from it? His mercies are new everyday. Seek the Lord and we should find Him. That includes confidence BTW!!! Like I said before, I have a lot of growing to do before I get to this goal, but I know that every second of everyday He is there to help me get there, always forgiving me and giving me chances!

Much Love,




5 thoughts on “Rachel Utz…The Struggle is Real”

  1. Awesome! Awesome! Wonderful! Thanks for sharing your heart! What a strong role model you are for our young ladies!
    Love ya, Michelle Starks

  2. Sweet Rachel! You are so wise in your years. You will succeed in this task because you are already believing that you will. Your parents are doing a fine job of teaching you, and you are doing a beautiful job of yielding to the Holy Spirit in your everyday life. Keep thriving in your beautiful journey! <3

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